I've spent way too much time trying to figure out why I'm not as easy going as I thought I was/want to be? Why my flexibility on my mat is so limited? To no avail. I recognize there can sometimes be this wall of resistance that rears up when I'm met with a simple obstacle. When it comes to major events it doesn't phase me, when something goes array I'm the first to flow with it understanding that everything happens for a reason.Yet a slight obstacle I mean something that truly should be viewed as minuscule in daily life can create agitation, I have no idea why I become reactive I just do and consciousness flies out the window leaving me with harsh judgments, nasty internal dialogue and a less then patient manner. Not the person I want to be, nor the role model I want to set for my children. I could use being tired as an excuse I mean two children in just over two years is a lot on the body mind and soul but then I'd just be reverting and we've already decided no more excuses!
So I've given up trying to "figure out why" and decided instead to change it! How you may ask? Just recognizing it, catching my breath and feeling it without giving into it. I can't necessarily make the emotions disappear but I can choose to not react. It is talked about a lot in Yoga to allow the sensations their space and be the silent witness, so now it's time for me to put this into action in everyday life.
I find the more I attempt to find balance and go deeper into presence the more out of balance and disconnected I feel at times, or maybe its just recognizing how much work needs to be done because each time you peel back a layer there is another revealing itself, it is a fascinating albeit daunting task. It is not for the weak hearted, or those to scare easy its for us warriors who will let nothing stand between us and the peace we know we deserve, no actually better said is the peace we know we ARE.
I just finished reading "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin and I've decided to embark on my own happiness project starting the beginning of next month and like her, not because I am unhappy in my life but because I know I am capable of even more happiness! I'm super excited and hope you'll join in and see where it goes and maybe even pull a little inspiration to bring more joy into your world.
Blessings of love and light find you...
So I've given up trying to "figure out why" and decided instead to change it! How you may ask? Just recognizing it, catching my breath and feeling it without giving into it. I can't necessarily make the emotions disappear but I can choose to not react. It is talked about a lot in Yoga to allow the sensations their space and be the silent witness, so now it's time for me to put this into action in everyday life.
I find the more I attempt to find balance and go deeper into presence the more out of balance and disconnected I feel at times, or maybe its just recognizing how much work needs to be done because each time you peel back a layer there is another revealing itself, it is a fascinating albeit daunting task. It is not for the weak hearted, or those to scare easy its for us warriors who will let nothing stand between us and the peace we know we deserve, no actually better said is the peace we know we ARE.
I just finished reading "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin and I've decided to embark on my own happiness project starting the beginning of next month and like her, not because I am unhappy in my life but because I know I am capable of even more happiness! I'm super excited and hope you'll join in and see where it goes and maybe even pull a little inspiration to bring more joy into your world.
Blessings of love and light find you...
No comments:
Post a Comment